Black abyss opening body feeling numb thoughts race to the mouth< Words sliping from my lips creeping and scareing

So i walked up to my cousin rod and talked to him about me wanting to start a band uber bad and and we kept talkin about it and his wife started to listen in and she said that face cage was going on tour in the uk and they were having auditions and that she gunna get me a spot so guess what I MIGHT GET TO GO ON TOUR AND LIVE MY DREAM but i dont wanna leave the love of my life

SO IN LOVE cant get it out my head

i feel like shit man everything has been going to hell idk what to do?????any awnsers??

blood running from your throat like rain falling from the sky make noises that shouldnt come.Screams from the unforbidden gaggaling blood stains from those who have fallen benath me